28 October 2010

There are hard days, and today was one of those. So was yesterday. And the day before that. And the week before that.

It will get better. It will get better. It will get better.

15 September 2010

I'm off to Capitol Reef for the Sleeping Rainbow Writer's Workshop, a UVU venture in collaboration with BYU. I get ridiculously intimidated at these sorts of things. But, I'll try to focus on improving my writing, rather than feeling sheepish amongst the more talented sorts who self-identify as Writers.

23 August 2010

I did it! I did it! I did it!

This is me, home safe and sound,
From my first ever
Solo Backpacking Expedition.

"All men say 'What' to me, but I thought it a fashion.
When much in the woods, as a little girl, I was told that the snake would bite me that I might pick a poisonous flower, or goblins kidnap me; but I went along and met no one but angels who were far shyer of me than I could be of them, so I haven't that confidence in fraud which many exercise." --Emily Dickinson, in a letter to Higginson as quoted in his Atlantic essay

In other news, Jasper (the lost netbook) has been found. And none of my roommates oppose pets of the feline sort. Want list, I whittle you.

15 August 2010

I've had a lot on my mind lately. I've been trying to keep the thoughts tethered to a stake of "Treat yourself in the same manner as you expect yourself to treat others: with courtesy, understanding and gentleness."

Today, as I was writing, I decided to let myself make a list of things I want. Forget that it feels horribly selfish and egotistical. It's not. There's nothing wrong with being aware of my own desires, no matter how selfish focusing on those may feel.

I thought that what came out in my list was interesting. I'm curious as to what would be on your list, and how we understand our own lists of desires. So, I'll take the first step by sharing my own:

  • I want a kitten
  • I want to speak perfectly accented, grammatically accurate, Spanish
  • I want to learn a trade--like automotive repair or computer repair, nursing, carpentry, plumbing or farming.
  • I want to be part of a small, close knit community that includes children through the elderly.
  • I want to be happy in my present.
  • I want to reach out to others and remain open to the growing of the aforementioned close knit community.
  • I want to be financially stable.
  • I want to hike, travel and explore on a regular basis.
  • I want to work with children and/or adolescents.
  • I want to be part of a faith community who shares my values and supports my journey.
  • I want to search out a compassionate man who wants to build life with me, with whom to share love and companionship.
  • I want a small, stuffed, couch to sink down and cuddle into (perhaps with the aforemntioned man, or a good book, or pen & paper, or a friend, or the aforementioned kittens, or schoolwork.)
  • I want to work in the sun.
  • I want to find my lost netbook.
  • I want to feel content with being alone.
  • I want to feel confident in my ability to be an agent for change in the world.
  • I want to be an agent for change and social justice in my life, those I love, and strangers.
So, that's the list I came up with. Surely there are other things that could be included ("meangingful conversation with passionate people" jumps to mind,) but I was constrained by paper space at the time that I was originally constructing the list. Even without being all-inclusive, I feel like my list pretty well captures who I would like to be and the thoughts that have been boggling my mind of late.

What do you want?

31 July 2010

Colgate & Coleus

Brushing my teeth this morning , it occurred to me that it's kind of strange: We scrape a chemical formula across our teeth every morning and night... and that keeps our teeth clean and healthy. Weirrrrrrd. And wonderful. (although I imagine there are non chemical concoctions that work well?) Also apparently even without the toothpaste it's good for your teeth, according to a dental hygienist a while back. I'm glad that I can keep my teeth healthy. Even if I'm still conflicted about, "Wait, people a century ago couldn't do this! (or could they?) And there are people today who still don't have access! Yarh."

= my favorite toothpaste

Also, I have a little garden of coleus growing in my house, and have possibly adopted one of Sarah's aloe plants. These are super-easy to care for plants. Still, I usually kill even the "easy" plants. I've enjoyed taking care of these little plants and checking in on them every day. I'm surprised how useful and grounding taking care of the plants has been for me. As for weirdness similar to the toothpaste: Coleus you'll find in the wild is green. We have cultivars of various leaf shapes and colors and they're really pretty. They're not natural. You won't go out to the jungle anywhere and find a pink and apple-green variegated coleus. That's sort of weird to me. But, I'm okay with it.

= my favorite coleus cultivar, popularly named "Freckles"

*Blogging about toothpaste & houseplants is mostly a practice in "it's okay to be boring, and maybe if you write a li'l more often, something interesting will start to shake out more regularly." Thanks for patience.

21 July 2010


Let's make this a food testing blog, for the week.

Burger King's Veggie Burger= edible, but not particularly desirable. I'd been wanting to try it for a while. When I realized this evening that I'd eaten very little through the entire day, obviously it was time. I am now satiated, but it's not something I'll ever crave.

What new foods've you tasted or tested lately?

20 July 2010

itchy itchy feet that refuse to get scratched

So, I spent two months on the road. Itinerant. Wandering. Movemovemovemoe

Then, I came home. My Mom came to visit. When she left, I went back on the road for a weekend. And then the following weekend. And the weekend after that, too. I'm not sure my wanderlust has been sated, but I'm determined to stay home this weekend.

I'm sure there's plenty I could write about those adventures. But, here's what actually finally inspired me to post:

Megs and I held a duel between Private Selection Premium Fruit Bars (Strawberry) and Dreyer's brand strawberry Fruit Bars. While Dreyers had a more consistently creamy texture, the PS brand had more strawberries and a sweeter flavor. The cheapo knockoff brand wins! Please purchase accordingly.

this message brought to you by the strangest lunch, ever: Potato Salad, scrambled eggs spiced with various indian flavors & cinnamon, and fruit bars. This lunch was consumed while creating a Thank You card for the Conrad Beach Co-op folk who kindly hosted us on last last latestlast minute notice, in San Francisco. We cut out the card to look like the Wasatch Range. Timpanogos, the Y on Ymountain, and June Suckers merrily swimming through Utah Lake were all included. You miss Provo. You know it. Don't deny

18 April 2010


19 January 2010

Preach It, Sister!

I listened to this interview while I was at work on my Ipod. Then, I came home and watched the same interview. Amazing. I first learned of A People's History when I was in High School, reading an op-ed piece in the local paper. Later, I tried to ask my teachers about the book but no one knew what I was talking about. I couldn't remember the title and so the book was lost to me until now.

The dramatizations, I think, were more moving when I was listening to them. Without the image of the actress, I was free to imagine Susan B Anthony, Cesar Chavez, Sojourner Truth, speaking the words. So, perhaps when the actors step up, just close your eyes and listen. However, what I earned with watching the video was an appreciation for the age of Howard Zinn. Watching a grandfatherly and great-grand fatherly man discuss these great orators out of history, helped me to remember that the causes of social justice are timeless. I've been told that I will "grow out" of my concerns. But, here are two men who are quite old enough to have "grown out of their concerns." And, they haven't.

Bill Moyers Journal interview with Howard Zinn

The video is nearly 30 minutes long, but worth the watch. If it's not your cup of tea, I suggest fast fowarding to the 23rd minute to listen to the final dramatization--Kerry Washington as Sojourner Truth, a fiery abolitionist who was born in to slavery.

01 January 2010

New Year Song

"What a Wonderful World" with spoken intro by Louis Armstrong off the Louis and Friends album.

I would have preferred to share just an audio clip, but couldn't find one. This you tube video is what I found instead. No need to watch, I'm not too keen on the video. But, listen, if you like. I like.